Growing up I loved going to Sunday School and learning about heroes of the Bible and their faithfulness to God. Hebrews 11 talks about many of these heroes; men and women who accomplished amazing feats through faith in God. This list includes Noah, Abraham and Sarah, Isaac, Moses, and Gideon. The people God called to do great works is seemingly endless. Their stories seem so perfect; God called them to do something, He equipped them to complete the task, and they were successful and pleasing to God. So why does it seem when I respond in faith that the process is hard, full of tears, and I feel like a failure?
When I found out I was pregnant with my now 5 month old, Journey and I both agreed that I would leave my career as a nurse, which I loved, to become a stay-at-home mom. God called me into motherhood and I knew He was calling me to raise my baby at home. Daycare was not an option and I didn’t want to miss these precious moments in my child’s life. It seemed like such a perfect and simple choice! Now, in the middle of my faithfulness, I am grieving. I grieve the loss of a career I was passionate for, I grieve the loss of friendships that I have put on hold, I grieve the freedom I used to have, and I grieve the change in my relationship with my husband. Some days, I struggle to see the purpose God has for this season He has called me to.
All too often we compare our middle to someone else’s ending. The process of being faithful is not easy. It requires waiting and sacrifice. Imagine the sacrifice Noah made to build the ark? He worked day in and day out, tirelessly building, simply because God told him to. Abraham left his homeland and family for a land he had never seen before. I am sure he grieved the loss of what he had as he was faithful to God’s call. Sarah waited for 90 years to have a baby, believing God would keep his promise but not knowing when. Moses recognized the plight of his people and followed God’s call to lead them out of slavery.
Hebrews 11:35-38 says “...But others were tortured, refusing to turn away from God in order to be set free. They placed their hope in a better life after the resurrection. 36 Some were jeered at, and their backs cut open with whips. Others were chained in prisons. 37 Some died by stoning, others were sawed in half, and others were killed with the sword. Some went about wearing skins of sheep and goats, destitute and oppressed and mistreated. 38 They were too good for this world, wandering over deserts and mountains, hiding in caves and holes in the ground.” (NLT)
I don’t know what the end result of my faithfulness will be. I don’t know if I will ever be a nurse again. But I do know that by answering God’s call on my life my faithfulness will be rewarded. This promise is made sure to us in Hebrews 11:39-40, “ 39 All these people earned a good reputation because of their faith, yet none of them received all that God had promised. 40 For God had something better in mind for us, so that they would not reach perfection without us.” (NLT) No matter what season of life God has placed you in at this moment, no matter how difficult it is to remain faithful during the changes you are going through, God has promised us something better. Stay faithful during the process, for there is purpose in all that God has called us to.